A Neurotic Episode…
And the ensuing depression. Signs of stress, discouragement, over-worked, over-burdened. Over-high expectations. It’s all a burden.
And then I’m reminded.
“Much has been given, much is expected.”
I feel like running from responsibility, but ultimately when it’s my turn, I have to step up to the plate, and now it’s my turn. I am burned-out, discouraged and slightly insane. But with the new strength You have given me I will bear this responsibility. For all I’ve been blessed – because I’ve been blessed – much is required of me.
The Wolves…
- of discouragement, stress, broken relationships, and so on, camp outside my door on a weekly basis. I cannot be turned out amongst these without a greater helping of Your Presence – through
meditation
prayer
good books
music
Presence
rest
stillness
Sabbath
Quiet.
And then getting back out into the fight.
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the Lord bless you.
the Lord keep you.
the Lord shine His face upone you.
and give you peace.
and give you peace forever.
My empathy goes out to you.. depression can be such a demon, a thorn in the flesh.. my experience has been that when it does come a knocking, it’s time to lean into faith, the faith and healing that God gives, and it’s also a learning curve to self-care.. there are human things that I have had to learn (and am learning) on what I need to do so I can be a better steward of my body, heart and soul.